Raw Beauty: 2011

Sometime I feel guilty for my unexplained unhappiness. I mean I have two adorable, sweet, loving children. A husband that is not always perfect, but loves me dearly with his whole heart. I may not have a whole lot of riches but I have a nice home to live in that keeps us safe and warm. I feel as I have experienced some of the best moments life could offer. Although my extended family is spread far away, they love me and the times we share are grand. Yet why do I go through periods of unrest, discontent, longing for something more? I read something this morning that realeased an unspeakable joy inside of me that I just had to share with my two besty girls. It's not like I haven't heard this concept before, but the way Max Lucado worded this just gave me a better understanding. You see, one of my biggest struggles in life is letting go feelings of guilt. Over mistakes I've made, people I've hurt, not being the best Mom, wife, friend, daugter, etc. And this unhappiness and why I have it occasionally, it's another big guilt for me. So, here's what he said in "Grace for a Moment, A 365 Day Journaling Devotional":

We are not happy here because we are not at home here. We are not happy here because we are not supposed to be happy here. We are "like foreigners and strangers in this world" (1 Peter 2:11)
And you will never be completely happy on earth simply because you were not made for earth. Oh, you will have your moments of joy. You will catch glimpses of light. You will know moments or even days of peace. But they simply do not compare with the happiness that lies ahead.

Earlier he writes:

Unhappiness on earth cultivates a hunger for heaven. By gracing us with a deep dissatisfaction, God holds our attention. The only tragedy, then, is to be satisfied prematurely. To settle for earth to be content in a strange land.....

My kingdom dies not belong to this world. John 18:36

Back to me: You see people always let you down. Even those who love you the most. But this is not it, this life. Thank goodness. I am not satisfied with this just being it. And that is ok. Even though there are people and even things that make me SO happy. There is more and I finally feel it's ok to want more.

I love you girls, I hope this brightens your day a little bit.

Esther

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Yeah!! I finally finished my shabby fabric wreath that I had blogged about doing in a previous post. I tried to incorporate some fallish colors for the season.

I have also been inspired to recover some of my couch cushions. I started with this one and love how it came out! Now on to the big cushions!

Also, I wanted to share with y'all what I ordered from Amazon last week. We gave it a test drive yesterday. It was so much fun! And with both of them in there, I got quite the workout going up our little hills!

Brad and Grace had come home with a bike one day for my birthday. But since I always have a little munchkin in tow, I have really not been able to use it.....until now.

Mom gave me these shoe holders awhile back and I finally found a new use for them storing all Grace's stuffed animals. I think they look much better and Grace loves it!!